Why I Wish I Was Dead

Well, let’s start with what I know.

I know, each individual action has an equal and opposite reaction. I know that if you let a certain factor influence your behavior, that factor is now influencing the lives of others around you, for the better or the worse. This is the basis for Chaos theory. We are all interconnected through our social interaction, establishing a global consciousness.

That right there, is where I lose people and we haven’t even got started. I will have to explain Positivism and give you multiple examples before you begin to see the bigger picture. Not because you are not as intelligent as me; you’re probably much smarter than I am. Your intelligence was measured by your ability to regurgitate highly committed information to memory. Congratulations! The public education system just turned you in to nothing more than a mindless database of information. What about your ability to reason? What about your ability to walk into a new situation, one you have never observed before, and comprehend something that until only a moment ago was foreign to you? That is your intellectual capacity. You were not taught how to reason in the public education system. If something was not working out right, you simply tried your formula backwards or started all over with the same set of dogmatic guidelines. You aren’t given a range of possibilities and asked how one might reach any number of those conclusions, developing the ability to determine for one’s self.

So, when someone of authority tells you something is truth; you have no choice but to believe.

You have been conditioned to OBEY. Luckily, I most likely had ADHD to say the least. Today, studies are getting closer and closer to blurring the line between Autism and Learning “disorders”. ADD, ADHD and Autism have been found to be linked in many ways. Both “disorders” are the result of early stress in the womb during neurological development of the fetus. This stress in the womb is triggered by the hormones in the mother’s blood stream. When a mother is stressed, her heart rate, blood pressure, glucose levels and mood all affect her hormonal production. When the developing fetus recognizes these changes; inhibitors for Emotion, Empathy and lifesaving survival instincts begin to rewire.

The fetus has to assume that regardless of what is causing the stress for the mother; whether it’s improper dieting, exhaustion because of work, financial problems (that’s a big one for countless moms over the last decade and a half) or relationship issues the environment it will be born into is hostile. The newly formed individual is instinctively already preparing for the worse.

These children have a sense of urgency. They don’t do anything at a “calm, normal level”. They process information much more abstract than the rest of us do and they do not put very much emphasis on what they assume to be trivial or, not critical to their immediate survival.

The worse the situation was in the womb for the fetus, the more closed off to the world they will be and the harder time communicating and coping they will surely have. Should we load these kids up with Amphetamine’?

I don’t know why in the hell you would assume something like Meth is a solid solution with the impact it has on brain cells and yet you refuse to hear anything regarding a naturally occurring, organic plant that could cure 60% of common illnesses and replace 130 different non-renewable industrial products with renewable ones instantly.

The answer is to change the way you educate children all together. For children that possess the certain inclination, they should be allowed to attend vocational trade schools as early as 12 so they may master that trade by the time they hit adulthood. This should be available for ALL desiring candidates.

Secondly, those children that think so abstract need to be educated in a very old school way, just like our kinetically inclined population in the trade schools will be doing; small classrooms with great student to teacher ratios allowing the abstract children access to unlimited information. Wherever their mind takes them, we will follow and tentatively provide order and structure as necessary.

That solves more problems than you could ever imagine. Provided this education is free to the student (there are a multitude of ways to make this possible). You will never run short of tradesmen as we do in today’s education/economic model. We will advance the fields of medicine and technology at an even higher exponential rate than today. 1/3^rd of the world population is uneducated by the simplest of standards. I would argue that number is closer to 70%. 1/3^rd of the American population is out of the workforce or on social assistance. It would be awesome for the low income communities if they had access to vocational education at least and yet, they do not. A pell grant, does not pay your bills. Economically, our adult population cannot go back to school and yet we refuse to educate our children the first time. Why teach them a discipline, for a trade that does not give anything back to the society? Think about your job and how it benefits society. Don’t giver yourself that bullshit corporate line your boss gives on “Moto Mondays” either. Be honest with yourself.

What are you doing to help your fellow man? Giving it to your church so they can build a bigger cathedral and increase their members? The preacher isn’t trying to save people, he’s trying to grow his own individual self-worth by increasing his congregation. It feels good to help others. But it also pays really well when it comes to religion and government. All of that money you put in the offering plate goes to the tv channel and the infrastructure and the salaries of those that manage it. Even the mission overseas require THEIR OWN fundraisers because the “coffers are empty”. Sound familiar? That is because religion was created by man, just like government. Religion, and government were both created for the consolidation and then exponential expansion of power and authority. Jesus would rather you pray in your closet, or have fellowship in your backyard around the BBQ. Any gathering that promotes selflessness, good will and equality for all is welcome anywhere. Fraternities, Country Clubs and Secret Societies have cathedral’s and tax it’s people. That is what a tithe is. When Jesus entered the temple in Jerusalem he saw the Romans and the Priests collecting tithes and tax in the form of offerings, sacrifice and hard currency. You know how that story goes.

The government and Dogmatic religion are parallel in this respect. Both claim to be the moral conscience of the individual, therefore representing the collective and furthermore; dehumanizing you through psychological condition. You are pavlov’s dog. You don’t determine your own destiny because you as an individual are (theoretically) incapable of altering your own destiny because you need a voice to represent you. What is wrong with your voice? You need someone else to interpret the words that were handed down to you from your God. Where is your freedom of thought? You need a collective to feel a part of the world around you because you do not see your likeness in the people around you. You have been trained to believe you are from a different side of the tracks, make more or less money, cut your genitals or don’t, paint your body or don’t, carry a weapon or don’t, your skin doesn’t match or you support one school and everyone else supports another. You’re too busy focusing on our differences to see how alike we are.

Every wonder why we are not supposed to talk about Religion, Politics or Money? God forbid we all figure out were arguing the same side of the coin from an infinite number of perspectives. There 7 billion realities out there based on individual perception and social influence. We can all find a reason to hate. But we don’t have to look any further for a reason to love one another than the mirror.

I lost my point to all of this. Other than the fact the answer is so simple and it is right in front of us it frustrates me to the point of wanting to remove myself from existence. I’m not better than you. I’m just another biological version of you. The atmospheric conditions of my environment altered the way I see the world as it has altered your view. If you will read Thoreau, Martin Luther Kink Jr. or listen to Imagine by Lennon these words were not original. The greatest speeches of all time are founded on a common understanding of the individuals place in society. Martin Luther King Jr had a dream we would all be equal, not just in our vote but truly equal as individuals. Jesus said we are all God’s children; for God is love. Lennon imagined a world where everyone believed the same thing; that the welfare of all mankind is important because the relationship we share is symbiotic regardless of our individual ideologues. Those men, and men like Nikolai Tesla and Aaron Swartz knew the greatest secret: the power lies with the will of the people. Should you unite under a collective voice that actually speaks for the people like these men did, the next time you will not be able to stop the movement by killing it’s leader.

The movement, only needs a leader because you believe the world to be too big and the problems too complex. We are all leaders and we should all act like leaders. The only difference between great men, and the rest of us; is they didn’t know they couldn’t accomplish what they set out to.

I am no different from you, and you are no different from the men and women that have paid the ultimate sacrifice. I’m not moving to the back of the bus anymore. You shouldn’t either.

What should you do? Non-violent civil disobedience at every unwarranted cop shooting. Occupy the police unions and if you are a cop SPEAK UP against policies that don’t represent an equal and just society. Don’t approach civilians like they’re enemy and they will return the favor. Have more police outreach and community programs. Go build an organic garden in the hood. Go hand out popsicles and water to the kids in the summer. Open a damned fire hydrant. If the “crime” doesn’t have a victim and that ticket just brings in revenue for the force, you don’t have to write that ticket and under the Common Law defense, I don’t have to have a tag, a driver’s license, registration, insurance or follow the traffic laws (no victim, no crime, plead the fifth, ask them if you’re being detain, present your common law defense and wait for the supervisors. If you are polite, respectful and courteous I don’t care if you were doing 200 mph in a school zone I can get you off as long as you did not hit anything or anyone. Any attorney that does not, is taking your money because you don’t know any better).

Don’t pay taxes. Don’t vote. Don’t shop for groceries anymore. Build an Aquaponics system, get a couple of goats and some chickens. Reduce your dependence on the machine. Read philosophy, teach yourself math from the ground up, read, READ and READ SOME MORE! Make your children READ, everything. Whether you agree with it or not, find objectivity. That is the only way to improve your stance.

Then meet me in the streets and we can make our demands to the corporations that manipulate our government into supporting a system of perpetual violence and Oligarchy.

The technology is available right now to solve the energy crisis and the debt crisis simultaneously. It will take a lot of work in the beginning from all parties. But it will be worth it. You won’t have to worry about your kids being poisoned, the water being contaminated or the food being riddled with preservatives. No one will have any reason to fly planes into our buildings or invade our shores. We can drop the borders and travel the stars together within a couple of decades of this change. Solve disease, provide universal education and end famine.

Look up the US Patent system. Ask yourself why there is no grant money for your education, yet we spent a 1 trillion dollars last year on bombs, roads and building BS schools in other countries. We were all self-sufficient in the beginning. Our mandated interdependence is why we have no voluntary desire to communicate, coupled with the fact that fascist population control models of censorship and creating division exist within our current social model. Don’t’ talk about Politics, Religion and Money. Because there are only two sides of that coin. Those with power and money and those without. What Billionaire wants you to realize that truth.